Lemme tell you, today I was friend zoned. Just when you thought the guy you liked was shooting his shot. Asking you what you like to do outside of church, and what you want out of you us talking. I said what I want –
He goes “I just got out of a 9 year relationship, I just want to have fun.”
My heart sank.
I immediately became small, and was like it’s happening again. Right when you think the guy you like or are interesting in getting to know – knows you exist. They don’t see you in a capacity that is more than that of a friend.
Welp. Ah well.
What happens when you decide to get out of your own way? We’ll I promised myself I would work on getting get out of my own way, and let me tell you it’s not the easiest.
‘Cause you have to overcome self-doubt and whatever reason it exist. Where it came from and why people the closet to you aren’t willing to show up for you and support you in the capacity that you are expecting.
Here’s something’s that I’ve been working on in efforts to get out of my own way.
- I’ve put my graphic design content on fiverr.com
- I realized not everyone isn’t gonna support you. My marketing went onto overdrive.
- I worked harder on my stationery company. (thelunarmoonco.com)
It’s one of the best things that has happened to me thus far.
Check out some of my current projects here www.thelunarmoonco.com
Keep up with me on social media @thelunarmooco on FB / IG
– stay beautiful people
I often get the question “What made you get into the Stationery Business?” It’s honestly, a easy question. After going back to school for Graphic Design + Web Design. I wanted to provide a platform where local artist like myself had a safe place + space to to display their work.
Also a platform where artist, and local makers could have there word seen by people from all over the world. It provides the opportunity for me to network with different people, and to get to speak with designers and artist and we all have this commonality and common goal to make great art.
Art is subjective. Granted while there could never be another Warhol or Basquiat you can be the best Artist you can be, and by supporting local makers, and artist helps keeps shops like this up and running.
Below are some of the cards that have been recently added to the shop, and don’t forget to be on the lookout for Father’s Day Cards
I spoke with my moms ex-fiance this morning, and I cried soo much. I just had tears coming down my face like I was on laughing gas.
We were talking about family dynamics and life and how I had to take a semester off in school due to the financial burden but he was just telling me.
“you know, you’re an intelligent young lady, don’t let anything or anyone get in the way of you accomplishing your dreams. – I am proud of you.”
The weight, and the weight of those words alone. I AM PROUD OF YOU. Means so, so much especially when you feel like you’re not where you feel like you need to be in life. Just means so much. I just literally broke down, and couldn’t remember I heard those words from someone when I needed to heard them the most.
today tell someone that you’re proud of them.
Happy May Lovely People.
this month I have a challenge set out for myself
to be more present.
to workout more constantly.
to breathe more.
to hug more.
to meditate more.li
– what goals are you setting for yourself this may?
First things first.
lets get this out of the way. It’s April 30th (what the entire fuck), and I honestly feel like I’ve been through hell and high water this month. And I honestly don’t even know where to start.
I broke up with my sister because she chose me over a piece of dick. And it’s just something that grinds my gears about somebody who has fucked up priorities.
Next, the guy I’ve been blogging about “the one who was soo unemotionally available.” Texted me out of the blue asking me out to dinner because he felt guilty. WTF does that mean?
I, after two days of wrecking my brain trying to figure out why the hell he texted me. I replied with “What made you wanna ask me out to dinner? After you worked so hard to get rid of me?
He replied with “I felt guilty and wanted to see how you were doing.”
I thought about leaving him on read as if that’s not already bad enough. I replied with a one worded message. “K.”
Here’s a little backstory for those who having been following it or don’t remember. I used to talk to a guy, and we dated for a while until about around the 4th or 5th month he said causally. “I’m still trying to figure out if I like you or not, and that’s why I’ve been trying to push you away this entire time. But nothing I did worked.”
and still to this day all I can think about is wtf am I attracted to those Articulate Asshole Gentleman Types? ‘Cause I know it’s not just me. It’s not my fault that your bruised and partially broken from past relationships, and the thought of something almost to real scares the living crap outta you. It ain’t my fault cause I am not here for the bullshit.
But what I’m not about to do, is not keep allowing you back into my life when it’s convenient for you. Not today.
I think that enough for one night tehehe.
stay beautiful. 🙂